In January this year, on facebook, I created an album called Kirk + CeCe, the first few photos were of Kirk opening an anniversary gift I couldn't wait until March for him to open. I gifted him a LOVEBOOK. I created the book during my school break last December and it was so fun to make a book about how I love Kirk.
I recently added more lovely photos of us together in that facebook album and I started to think back that I had created a website once upon a time for about our wedding. I remember the site had something extra special, a missing piece of our history.
In 2009, I was interviewed by an intern at Offbeat Bride to be a featured story on their website. I was so thrilled that we were being featured. I adore Offbeat Bride book and website, it was so helpful and encouraging to able to connect and relate with other couples who do their own thing instead of "traditional".
We were featured, our interview was posted in May 2009... then I don't know WHEN exactly, but I made a terrible decision to delete my flickr account and restart a new bride flickr account, and since I broke the link from the flickr to the bride tribe, my interview article was deleted. It is 100% my fault this happened. I hurt myself doing this careless thing. I am still upset about it. I believe that I had printed it and posted a copy of the work on my wedding website. As of this date, I do not have the printed copy and I have no access to the website, I typed in the address as I remember it, and I got a webpage that stated "This website is frozen". Then I remembered, that email account I deleted a few years ago, that's the email account that would have had access to that website; AND it would have had the communications for the interview with the intern at Offbeat Bride. Dang.
I guess with inquiring about the website from support of that company, they reactivated the site, and I jumped at the chance to recover the materials and post them to a website (linked to an active and future active email address). I was not able to find a full copy of my Offbeat Bride article but I have the link (not that it's helpful, it just makes me happy that it existed once).
On my website, I had links to things like my personal business page and vendors I used planning my wedding. I found out that someone stole my business platform and my business website. Ouf. I hope they found success in the business I started up and had marketing strategies completed by a friend. At least I had a cute logo and business merch.
I will post the website dedicated to our wedding once it's ready to relaunch. I have more photos to post and have some touch ups to take care of.
This year for our anniversary, Kirk offered to take me for a weekend away together. I joked about a road trip that we could do this summer because of quarantine and covid restrictions. He loved the idea and wanted to travel it this summer.
We've been together for 22 years (married for 12 years).
Kirk has been super supportive during the last few years: when my health was bad and through the doctors' appointments, medical tests, blood work, visits to specialists, x-rays, ultrasounds, CT scan, MRI... speaking up for my health when I didn't have the words or the strength to express myself. I know it's been hard for him to see me at my worse, all he wants to do is "fix it" but he can't, and that's his greatest struggle.
He was encouraging when it was decided that I wanted to attend college and work on my future. He was supportive when it was time to step aside from my spring semester; he understood the stresses involved that lead me to put aside my dream to make sure our family would be able to cope with their new lifestyle during the pandemic. Kirk was understanding when it was time for me to focus on my healing and begin my journey IFCI: I started working with a fibromyalgia coach and I was accepted in the Certified Advisor program with IFCI. He is happy that I have a plan to return to school in the fall to continue my education.
I am grateful for our relationship, Kirk is my best friend & my support team when I need him most.
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A devastating beauty with a fiery personality. Part lover, part fighter.
Chantals know how to make it rain. Your life is incomplete if you lack a Chantal. A completely magical girl.
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